Nothing says Ho Ho Ho like Hello Kitty - Happy Holidays

I think I am turning into one of NBC's HEROES

For most of you who know me, know my pledge name is SAY WUH? because I don't really hear that well - I think that is changing, therefore I am evolving into a Hero - look out Cheerleader... SAVE THE KATIE, SAVE THE WORLD - well definitely.

I think my sense of hearing is heightening to new bounds. For example, yesterday, sitting at my desk I was typing away AND listening to my ipod and I could hear the girl two desks away CHOMPING on her gum literally like it was her job. I shot her some wayward glances but she was clueless (PER USUAL). Finally, I turned my ipod up louder- TO NO AVAIL... Interesting.

Then, later on yesterday I went to the Macy's in Bedford to pick up a gift card for my manager for a group Christmas gift from our team and I got in the first line I could see. Behind me walked up this woman who answered her cell phone and started speaking in half Spanish/half obnoxious and she was so loud. I had to turn around a few times because I literally thought she was all up in my kool-aid. So, the line was moving so slowly and finally it was my turn and the woman, still fluent in obnoxious, was on the phone and she had two people with her. I moved up to the counter and this roley poley boy (probably 12 years old and hadn't had a growth spurt in a while) flanked my right side and wouldn't go away. I wanted to turn to him and say, "I need my personal space and you are invading it right now!" But I refrained. It was hard to refrain but I did. Then it was time for me to put my pin in and that kid was STILL flanking me to the right. I looked over at him with a menacing look and covered the pin pad like he was going to cheat off my math exam... Finally my turn was over and I went to leave and the cell phone lady was STILL on the phone (ANOTHER PET PEEVE- get off the phone when you are checking out at a register) and in a huff I said, "GET OFF THE PHONE" and walked out...

So either my new super power is intense hearing or that I am a magnet for rude people. Not quite sure. Still, I should be on the show giving Ali Larter a run for her money.

You are not going to believe what I just read in the paper

'Gothic Kittens' sold on the web

Humane officers say a Pennsylvania woman marketed "Gothic kittens" with ear, neck and tail piercings over the Internet.

Officers with the Society for the Preservation of Cruelty to Animals removed three kittens and a cat Wednesday from a home outside Wilkes-Barre, P.a., about 20 southwest of Scranton.

Officer Carol Morrison says the society got a tip that the Ross Township woman was selling the pierced kittens on the Internet.

"She says, "It's unbelievable anybody would do this to kittens."

The Associated Press

Shoulder Update

I went to Concord Orthopaedics for the first time since 1995 and had my shoulder looked at by a very handsome Dr. Casey. I was relieved to hear it wasn't my rotator cuff, so no surgery would be needed.

Dr. Casey advised that it is probably an inflammation of the bicep tendon sheath. Dr. Casey assists with the Fisher Cats and said this is definitely a baseball/softball injury because there wasn't an actual incident; just sore after a week where we played three games in a row.

Dr. Casey gave me two options: An injection or physical therapy. He said an injection would be quick and easy and should take away the inflammation but it is painful and I may have a topical reaction to it. He said therapy would be ultrasound and something else that would help me work to decrease the inflammation.

Sure I would like to have immediate gratification, but I would also like to know ways to keep this from happening again... So, I opted for physical therapy. I have to call Coppola PT on Monday and do three weeks of pt and then go back and see Dr. Casey after pt.

I know I am not a doctor, I just play one on TV, however I am worried about adhesive capsulitis(frozen shoulder)... So, I will keep you all posted after I start pt!

White Trash Thursday

I went to Wal-mart to return the incorrect cable that I had purchased for a DVD player and there was a woman there (see photo, white jacket) and she was shaking, leaning half over and looked like she was passing out... It was so bad that my friend went to one of the Wal-mart employees to say this woman is passing out... Wal-mart lady said there was nothing she could do *another reason why I was returning my purchase and buying something at target*

Finally I got up to the customer service person and this lady was trying to return some stuff, she didn't have a receipt and was trying to produce her license. NO LIE she like passed out in her purse three times. I made eye contact w/ her and was like, "is she okay? and I hope she isn't driving" (you know how you can convey stuff like that with your eyes, mouthing the words and hand motions)

I was really concerned that since she was in the store returning in this state that she was actually driving in this state, so my friend and I went out to the parking lot to follow her... We had found out that she was going out to her car to find her driver's license. So, we look for her and she was all over the parking lot, obviously unable to find her car... In the parking lot we saw another group of people, who appeared to be intoxicated or on something, and they were yelling and screaming and had a kid in tow. We commented to ourselves, "let's hope she isn't with that group and that they might think she is in the best form to return stuff"

We completely lost her in the parking lot and headed back into the store and she was back at the register WITH one of the people from the parking lot... She was barely able to stand up and her friend muckled onto her for dear life as she was going to fall over...

I called 911. Yup, I did. I didn't think it was safe for her to not be looked out by a professional. Called 911 and the person was nice, but they asked me if she had a history of heart disease. Then she wanted me to ask the person questions... I stated, "I am sorry but I am not talking to her, I don't know what she is on and what she might due to me in her state, so I will NOT speak w/ her or stand closer than 15 feet...

Finally the paramedics show up as she is leaving, still unable to return her purchase (hehehehe) and they take her out front. They pat her down and NO LIE - her friends disappear, like go out the different exit or whatever. I guess they checked her out enough because after approximately 10 minutes the paramedics leave but she is standing in the vestibule with the man with the baby speaking w/ a police officer. She may have gotten sited for public intoxication or whatever. I will have to look in the police log and let you know, but I was beside myself thinking that some one from her group of friends will find out and attack me... Freaked out a little.

I do think, however, I may have done a good deed because I may have saved her life or someone else's if she had been driving...

On another note, I think I may go back to target today and ask someone there what their policy is if something like that happens... I will keep you posted.

Tips for Ladies in 2009!!!!

'Good friends are like stars.........You don't always see them, but you know they are always there' 'Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live today' How quickly the years pass Tips for the ladies in year 2009

1. Aspire to be Barbie - the bitch has everything.

2. If the shoe fits - buy one in every colour.

3. Take life with a pinch of salt... A wedge of lime, and a shot of tequila.

4. In need of a support group? - Cocktail hour with the girls!

5. Go on the 30 day diet. (I'm on it and so far I've lost 15 days).

6. When life gets you down - just put on your big girl panties and deal with it.

7. Let your greatest fear be that there is no PMS and this is just your personality.

8. I know I'm in my own little world, but it's OK. They know me here..

9. Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself.

10. Don't get your knickers in a knot, it solves nothing; and makes you walk funny.

11. When life gives you lemons in 2009 - turn it into lemonade then mix it with vodka.

12. Remember every good-looking, sweet, single male is someone else's ex-boyfriend!

Most amazing news in all the land

Katie Mills has turned into a mermaid...


just seeing if anyone is paying attention.

Light at the end of the tunnel

Tomorrow, when I wake up in the morning- I FINALLY get to take some Wellbutrin. I have been titrating my other meds and I get to finally add some meds to the titration. Finally, I won't be so off kilter.

Four Christmases

I went to the movies yesterday and got to see FOUR CHRISTMASES. This movie was hilarious - unfortunately it made me cry TWICE... Definitely had it's moments that if you are down in the dumps about your place in life or if you lack a relationship with a boyfriend or a girlfriend - then it has twinges of sadness in that... I love going to the movies to get away from my day to day crap - this one didn't aid in that.

The funny parts were out and out HILARIOUS (not as funny as role models but pretty close) but the sentimental parts got to me...

So, don't go and see it if you are down in the dumps. I think Reese is really good at comedic roles. This is different from Elle Woods, she is a real person in this movie and is actually quite funny. Vince Vaughn is just hilarious. There were A LOT OF CAMEOS too, which is always fun.

I wanna Telecommute

I was out sick yesterday but I had the luxury of having a work lap top w/ me, so even though I was out sick, I was able to do a lot of work at home. I wish I had the ability to work from home everyday.

'pons vs wings

I have always been a wings girl. 'Pons make me sick to my stomach. Enough about me, I have to just say that the new Infinity wings are the most amazing wings EVER MADE. I have no idea how I have survived the last 21 years without them...

If you are a wings girl - you have GOT TO TRY THEM.

Yes Virginia, there is a Santa Claus. (Don't let your kids read this)

One Christmas when I was very young. I had a nightmare and came down stairs to sleep in between my parents... In doing so, I passed out for a little bit and sat up because I heard bells. I actually heard Jingle bells. When I woke up and rubbed the sleep from my eyes, I looked out the window and a crap you not I saw a slay with eight reindeer going by, FLYING THRU THE AIR. I swore I had seen Santa. This happened probably around the age of 6 or 7...

Since I had believed I had witnessed Santa flying thru the Tilton sky, it never donned on me otherwise... Not until I was 12/13 years old. That was the Christmas that we were going to Florida so we celebrated Christmas early. I had no idea that we were going to have our presents early. I have ALWAYS been a snoop. Up until recently when I was still speaking w/ my mom, I would go to her house and I would still have to look through her top drawer... That is where her jewelry is and I still have to look at it when I go there - but I digress...

When we lived on School Street, I knew my mom would have presents for us (other than from Santa) and I knew she would hide them. In the kitchen on school street, there was a storage space above the 2nd half of the kitchen area. So, I pulled the dishwasher over (it was the kind you had to wheel over and plug a hose into the sink), crawled up on top and opened the storage area - it had a barn looking door on it, very rustic looking. In that room, I had hit the mother load. There were tons of unwrapped dolls (I collected special dolls for display from all over the world) and books and toys... Now, I didn't think that this had anything to do with Santa because they weren't wrapped and I didn't know better. However, when we opened our presents, some with tags addressed from Santa, they were gifts I saw in the storage space. I THEN realized there wasn't a Santa.

I still, to this day, try to figure out what I saw flying in the sky... Maybe i heard wind chimes, not Jingle bells, but I don't ever remember us having wind chimes on School street... Maybe it was a dream, but I felt lucid. Maybe my dad had something hanging in the window? Who knows. I really thought I saw Santa. I would like to think I really did, but still... To this day my mom still tells me the TOOTH FAIRY has all my baby teeth.

REST IN PEACE, my friend

Jennifer Place

GONIC ; Jennifer Ann Place, 30, died Monday, Dec. 1, 2008.

She was born in Exeter the daughter of Jerry Place, Sr. and Debbie Wing, graduated from Noble High School Class of 1997 and received her bachelor's degree in business from the University of Southern New Hampshire.

Education was important to Jenn. She was currently working on her master's degree.

She was a claims disability specialist at Liberty Mutual, where she has worked for more than eight years. She was a hard worker and loved her job.

Jenn was a hard worker who loved to shop and spend time with her family. She especially loved her 10-year-old son, Joshua Pelletier.

Survivors include her son, Joshua Pelletier of Gonic; mother and stepfather, Debbie and John Mattis of Lebanon, Maine; father and stepmother, Jerre and Donna Place of Lebanon; her fiance and best friend, Dylan Schaaf of Gonic; one brother, Jerry Place, Jr. and his fiance, Jennifer Kimball of Lebanon; four stepbrothers, Kyle Huppe of Brighton, Mass., Nathan Huppe of Dover, John Mattis of Georgia and William Mattis of Portsmouth; paternal grandmother, Margaret Place of Eliot, Maine; maternal grandmother, Martha Wing of South Berwick, Maine; and many aunts, uncles and cousins.

"She loved you all."

Visiting hours will be Thursday from 4 p.m. to 7 p.m. at the Tasker Funeral Home, 621 Central Ave., Dover.

The funeral service will be held Friday at 11 a.m. at the funeral home. Burial will be in Mt. Pleasant Cemetery, Eliot.

In lieu of flowers, those who wish, are invited to make memorials to the Joshua Pelletier Trust Fund, c/o Lissa Brown, Northeast Credit Union, 9 Members Way, Dover, NH 03820.

Aghast

Yesterday was a busy day with a two hour training session at work and then tons of deadlines to meet and miles to go before I sleep... Then I get an email that makes me push away from my desk and practically yell, "OH MY GOD!"

I got an email that I friend of mine, with whom I used to work at the Dover Liberty Office, decided to put a gun to her head and shoot on Monday, December 1st. I had just emailed her at her work address my new cell phone number too.

She had emailed me previously about how she had switched jobs at Dover and was doing FMLA and was so happy. I realized that was 2-3 months ago. I feel horrible and just down right sad about this. She has a 10 or 11 year old son. A very handsome boyfriend, who I heard was going to propose to her on Christmas.

She had recently been through a lot since before I left the office in April. Something happened to her left leg and it was like it had been asleep for 18 hours and she lost the use of it and had to do rehab and was walking with a cane. Then I found out from her that she had had two seizures at work and was diagnosed with a seizure disorder. We had been friends on myspace and I would get updates that way, but I hadn't heard anything in a while and now this.

I feel like a bad friend, but more so I just feel so sad. I know life is tough and people get handed lemons a lot, but I can never forget that there is always a silver lining or tomorrow is a brand new day.

Tomorrow is the wake. I will be there but tomorrow will be a sad, sad day.

Circus

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITNEY SPEARS!

Today is Brit's 27th birthday and her brand new album, CIRCUS, came out today. I have had the song WOMANIZER stuck in my head since I first heard it like a week ago, and I just added it as a ring tone to my phone.

I just watched the Britney special (that I DVR'd on Sunday) Britney Spears: For the Record. Holy crap. I am so glad that she did it and if you can still find it on MTV you have got to see it. She really let's you in to what her life is really like and how she is dealing with her day to day life. It is certainly easy to see why she named her new album CIRCUS.

I went out and bought the CD today and I just wanted to say, "YOU SAY I'M CRAZY, I GOT YOUR CRAZY!"

Will this be a balloon at the Macy's Thanksgiving day parade?

Dr. Bundschuh to the rescue

NO MORE VOLLEYBALL for Katie... There is a possibility I may have bursitis of my right shoulder. I have been referred to an Orthopedic for 12/19/09 and I may need cortisone injections.

I also, had a switch in daily medications and I need to take acid reducer, or as I like to call them ACID ROOSA 2 times a day as I think I may have an Ulcer.

So, I see her again on 12/29... I feel like she will be a great PCP.

Monday blahs

Our system at work is all frozen and not working appropriately so today hasn't started out great. I have a flu shot in about 7 minutes and my long awaited PCP appointment at 1:15pm today. I have a laundry list of things to talk to the doctor about. I am kind of psyched.

I could cry right now

I just learned that had I gone to LA to the MOLE REUNION I would have met Neil Patrick Harris!!!!

I want to crawl in a hole and die.

I would have met Doogie, BARNEY STINTSON - wait for it, wait for it... I SUCK!

Am I selfishly motivated?

This year is the 18th year of lend a helping can - for wheb, the radio station I listen to. I was going to donate $5 anyways but this morning whilst in the shower they said if one was to donate between 7am-8:30am they would be registered to win 2 tickets to see NEIL DIAMOND. AND anyone who donates is registered to win a $6,000 hearts a fire Diamond necklace from Jewelry Creations in Dover. So, I donated $10 and I am proud of myself for that but I am concerned that my donation was solely so I could possibly get something out of it.

Speechless

I really don't have much to say today. Work has been crazy hectic as we were all pulled into an office on Monday and advised that accountability wise, if people don't start performing in 60 days certain people won't be here...

I thought about jumping up and starting to sing - HENCE PERFORMING - but I squelched that thought.

Much too young to feel this damn old

Last night was my first time in 5 years to get back on the volleyball court and play. When I moved away from the Concord area, I so missed playing on my league. When I got to Dover, I immediately found myself on a softball team, but something was missing.

When I moved back to the Concord area I was psyched to think I could get back on a volleyball team. The website was provided to me by a friend and I posted a "want ad" asking for me to be picked up for a team in the B league. Here is the definition of B League:

The B league is a Coed volleyball league. Games are once a week, on Tuesday nights. The season typically starts near the end of October and run into April. B league is an intermediate level league. Some of the players are ex-college players, but most learned to play through other leagues and open nights. It's the best league for new players, or players looking to fine tune their skills.

Seeing as I played beach volleyball for years at good ole, now defunct, Kings and Queens Court Vacation Resort and then preceded to play on my High School team for 2 years making Varsity immediately and earning the coveted prize of ROOKIE OF THE YEAR in 1993, I thought this definition of B league explained me well. Might I add, I also went to Bentley Volleyball camp and sent a try out video to KSC's volleyball team so I thought I could hold my own.

I am physically beat up today - I hurt all over - and I did think I would be sore from the physicality it would require. My forearms are slightly bruised from receiving serves. I think for taking a 5 year hiatus that I played very well. I served like an all star, I dug some great hits, I even did some standing spikes, but my team was much more skilled than I expected. I kind of feel like I may have let them down. I realized upon my arrival that when I played years ago, I played on the C league, not the B league... My team, the Fockers, was changing up formations so that this guy could set for us. I understand these formations as I used to be a setter (the one who receives the bump to set someone up for a spike or a kill) but I have never been anything really other than a Setter. I was just supposed to KNOW where they wanted me to go.

All the things that I CAN do in life, MIND READER has never been one of them. So, I played my damnedest. We won 2 out of the 5 matches. It was good exercise, I enjoyed playing but I don't think I enjoyed the team that picked me up. At one point I was yelled at, "KRISTY, MOVE BACK A LITTLE" I turned around confidently and said, "KATIE WILL MOVE BACK, I DON'T KNOW WHO KRISTY IS". SERIOUSLY!

On my way out, I said to the Coach - LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO COME BACK NEXT WEEK and no lie, his response was like Eeyore - Your on the team. Like, sorry we are stuck with you... So, I emailed him today saying :

I sincerely hope that you weren't disappointed w/ my ability level last night in playing. I found out, upon arrival, that the league I used to play on was the C league, not the b league. I personally feel that for not playing in 5 years that I did pretty well. But if you feel that you would like to find another female to play who is more skilled, I would understand. I just don't want to bring the team down in anyway.

I kind felt like a fish out of water - and maybe that was because I missed the first game, but I promise I will improve and practice. Just let me know.


Volleyball used to be fun, and I would like for it to continue to be fun. I am paying 60-something bucks to be on this league, shouldn't I enjoy it? However, I am uncertain if I am just being the overly competitive, hard on myself Katie or if it was just a bad thing all around. For example, I was playing back line and I tried to bump the serve to the setter and it went flying in the opposite direction a few too many times - let's say 5-7 times and they changed up the floor strategy so I wouldn't get the serve. Or I was set up for a spike and it went into the net and the coach moaned so loudly that I almost walked out right then and there.

Part of me is saying I have yet to pay for this league, maybe I should just no show and not come back, the other part of me says JUST EFFEN PLAY.

This is the response I got from the coach of the Fockers:

Hi Katie,
we have 4 girls on our team. One didn't show up last night because she was sick and couldn't find a baby sitter. If you ever feel that your out of place and would rather stop playing then that's your call, but I'm not going to kick someone off the team just because their not at the level with the rest of the team. Maybe if it was A league i would but not at B level. We play 5 games a night and with 4 girls that means one girl has to sit out 2 games a night. While we will rotate who that girl is, depending on the team we're playing I might choose you to be that girl if you don't mind. I understand you haven't played in awhile and as the year goes on you'll get better. As long as your having fun that's all that matters.

I really don't know how I feel about this response - he obvious doesn't believe I am at their level but maybe I am over reacting. (BTW, I bolded the part in his email for clarification of what I thought was kind of mean)...

Tell me what you think? He has a good point - as long as I am having fun, that's all that matters. I guess I have to realize if I am really having fun. I should give myself credit where credit is due. I know NO ONE who is playing and put myself out there for a team who needed extra players. That's huge... I just don't know if it is worth it.

Addendum to BIG BOO BOO

FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST. All is well - everything is okay - thank you all SOOOOOO much for your positive thoughts, everything is okay!

Oddity

I just sneezed and it kicked my throat's ass....

Does my throat have an ass?

Three things to RAVE about

Lately I feel all I have been doing is complaining - today I would like to BLATANTLY sing the praises of a few things.

First and foremost, my friend Cory Lee recommended a series of books to me, which I am now on the 3rd in the series (which is being held for me at the Concord Public Library as we speak). It is the Stephanie Plum Series by Janet Evanovich. These are MINDLESS books but fun to read and I am unable to put them down. Stephanie is a girl in her early thirties who decides to become a BOUNTY HUNTER to make money. They are considered mysteries but they are just good, fun books to read. I recommend them. What I also recommend is going to your public library and getting a book out from there. Nothing beats the smell of a library book.

Secondly, I think HEROES is probably the BEST SHOW on television. I know it is very sci-fi, but it is like a huge ONION, with so many different layers that I actually think there was a second onion on the inside hidden somewhere with twice as many layers. I really thought I was figuring it out and understanding and then BAM- something new and exciting ALWAYS HAPPENS. At first I thought we should just KILL THE DAMN CHEERLEADER ALREADY because the reason she can't die is because she wears WICKED tight clothes. But now there is more depth to all of it... I can't wait for next week. Plus, I have a massive crush on Sylar and I totally thought him and Elle were going to pork right there on the screen last night.

And finally - I bought some make up at Walgreen's - I know it was the cheap stuff, Wet'nWild - but it sometimes better to try something out cheap and if you like it, you know Lancome probably has the good stuff. Well, I found this sparkly eyeliner and mascara and it is my new favorite thing and when I purchased it, it was buy one get one free. NOTHING BEATS A BOGO. It is called I-Sparkle and if you like sparkly eyeliner, you gotta give it a shot - and it looks AWESOME when you line the top lid too!

So, I now recommend you try these things and let me know, or better yet - fill me in on three of your FAVORITE things and I will check them out - I totally accept ALL referrals.

Verbiage

If three in a serious is called a trilogy, what is four in a series?

Big Boo Boo

So, a while back I made an error in judgement - we all have those, right? So, in doing so I devised a plan to fix this error. I did my best to dig myself out of this hole that this error caused. In doing so, other things fell by the wayside and I needed to pick up some slack.

Some time has passed and this error in judgement came to a head today. This error led me to, what I believe, is to develop an ulcer, and be unable to sleep well at night. When this came to a head this morning and I finally explained what happened to the powers that be, I felt relief to finally get this monkey off my back.

Nonetheless, I sit here awaiting my fate. I accept the consequences. I have created a well thought out plan (thought out meaning that every night that I am awake due to the pain in my gut or my nerves) to remedy this error. This is effective Friday.

Let's hope that my plan and my being an awesome person enables me to continue the path that I am on. If not, then I am unsure how to move forward. Please send me positive thoughts. Obviously I don't wish to go into detail regarding this, but at least I am sharing some of which I have gone through in the last few months. Please don't ask me what happened, as I will not share, just aid me in getting through this.

Role Models

I saw ROLE MODELS last night and i think I laughed the whole time. It is HILLARIOUSLY FUNNY. No lie! Paul Rudd is so dry and just constantly funny and Sean William Scott is HANDSOME and just funny - the stuff that comes out of their mouths. This is definitely not a family movie as the LANGUAGE is horrific and there is nudity - but GO SEE IT and laugh your bum off.

HE'S ALIVE

Dunkin D. Nutz the 2nd made it thru the night!

Friend or Foe?

I am recently finding myself reflecting on what a friend actually is. I think intrinsically we all know what a friend means to each one of us as an individual. What I am trying to figure out is what being a friend is to someone else.

Per Dictionary.com:
Friend
1.a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2.a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3.a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?
4.a member of the same nation, party, etc.
5.(initial capital letter) a member of the Religious Society of Friends; a Quaker.

Okay- this definition may be help me on my quest to enlightenment. I am not doubting the level of friendship of current friends in my life. I have great friends and I love each and everyone of them dearly. What I am doubting is when someone is your friend and then you doubt his/her intentions.

Does a friend NEVER ask you any personal questions? Or when that person does, is it, "WHAT CRAWLED UP YOUR ASS AND DIED?"

Does a friend always have to be sarcastic to the point where you don't know if he/she is being serious and then says, "I WAS JUST KIDDING, JESUS CHRIST!"

Does a friend tell you to FUCK OFF (and not as a joke)?

I don't think these examples equate a friend. I know my friends ask me about my day, miss me when I am not around, have concern about me if they haven't heard from me, do not curse the ground I walk on, use ugly/evil sarcasm...

I find my research on this to be exhilarating because I am learning that my definition of Friend may differ from others. This does not should like friendship, it sounds like it is TOXIC.

I just found this definition for friend:
A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

I think that is very important. Yes I know this person, I don't think I like this person nor do I trust this person at all...

Interestingly enough A friend is a lover, literally. The relationship between Latin amīcus "friend" and amō "I love" is clear, as is the relationship between Greek philos "friend" and phileō "I love." In English, though, we have to go back a millennium before we see the verb related to friend. At that time, frēond, the Old English word for "friend," was simply the present participle of the verb frēon, "to love." The Germanic root behind this verb is *frī-, which meant "to like, love, be friendly to." Closely linked to these concepts is that of "peace," and in fact Germanic made a noun from this root, *frithu-, meaning exactly that. Ultimately descended from this noun are the personal names Frederick, "peaceful ruler," and Siegfried, "victory peace." The root also shows up in the name of the Germanic deity Frigg, the goddess of love, who lives on today in the word Friday, "day of Frigg," from an ancient translation of Latin Veneris diēs, "day of Venus."


Let's look at what defines this person, who isn't a friend or maybe is a toxic acquaintance. Toxic isn't the right word because by definition it means:

Capable of causing injury or death, especially by chemical means; poisonous.

So, assist me in obtaining the appropriate definition for this type of friend because right now the ONLY word that comes to mind is ASSHOLE!

Dead Buddy

So, I went to Pet Smart last night and got DUNKIN D. NUTZ, my new fish and he was belly up this morning. I flushed him to the big fish bowl in the sky then realized maybe I shouldn't have done that if I want to get another fish from Pet Co. I think I will just bring my receipt and the empty plastic thing and see if they will give me one more fish.

If anything happens to Dunkin D. Nutz the 2nd, then I am done w/ fish.

Hey buddy!!!!!

So, I finally think I have my apartment all together. Cyn and I FINALLY got the shelf put together which aids me in getting rid of all of the boxes in my living room and entry way. I think I need a friend. It is rather lonely at my house. My fish died about a month ago - and I miss Amaretto greatly.

I think it is time to get a new fish. I am ready for that. I am think it would be so wonderful to have a new fish...

Curses, Foiled again...

I came up, once again with a great blog this morning and it is TOTALLY GONE... Once I remember what it was,I will let you know.

Open book

I must be so much of an open book that no one has questions for me. That's cool. I thought people might want to know what it is like to be me, but I guess they get it.

Well. That's alright. No worries. I will say that I went to the movies on Sunday. I saw Pride and Glory per the request of one of my friends at work. I liked it - it was very good.

I am not a big fan of Colin Farrell, and this movie continued that lack of liking, because he was a jerky in this movie. What amazes me is how he can just "loose" his accent and speak like he is from this country and I can't even do a Spanish accent.

However, I love EDWARD NORTON and he continues to be an awesome actor in this movie. I don't think this is a movie that needs to be seen on the big screen but I think you should check it out and we should discuss.

Thursday I am hoping to go and see ROLE MODELS. The Morning Buzz said this morning that it is not only a funny movie but has a good theme. I CAN'T WAIT. I was going to watch it Sunday but I was helping out my friend at the theatre - WHERE I APPLIED FOR A JOB. I know, I already have a full time job but this place is in walking distance of my apartment and I am there whenever my friend works, so why not get paid for it.

My 100th post - I am one crazy mother plucker

I got new tweezers and I went crazy with them Friday night. Seriously - I am surprised I even have eye brows left.

What is the blogger protocol for one's 100th post - PLEASE ADVISE ALL KNOWING BLOGGERS!

Okay - so I was advised that I am supposed to ask for any questions - of anyone who reads my blog and I will answer them in my next blog - SO, ASK AWAY. My life is an open book anyway.

I have received some questions:
1. Can you juggle? I can juggle guys - I did that once in college but I haven't since then... I can't literally juggle though
2. If you saw that a rude waitperson dropped part of their tip would you give it to them? Yes - and then after the fact I would be mad at myself for not keeping it
3. Favorite cartoon from the 80's? Inspector Gadget
4. Would you ever want to be President? Yes - but I think my sexual escapades would come back to haunt me
5. Would you dye your hair black for the hell of it? NO
6. When are you going to love yourself as much as I do? Probably never. I have too many flaws and feel like damaged goods
7.If you were a food item typically served at a BBQ what would you be? Relish
8.Do you like the smell of gasoline? I did when I was younger, now I do not
9.Ever had sex in public? Yes
10. Could you shoot a deer if you were starving or stick to plants and berries? No, I couldn't shoot a deer
11. If you got to choose to be the lead singer of a popular 80's hair band, which would it be? Hmmmmmm. I can't sing but I guess if it was an 80's hair band that doesn't matter - so it would be CINDERELLA
12. Do you think Michael Jackson was guilty? Who am I to know, I wasn't there.
13.What is your favorite memory from The Mole? The gladiator game and when I let Anderson Cooper use some of my hand lotion, he told me he could just crawl up inside the bottle and take a nap, that is how good it smells.
14. Would you rather swim with sharks or be surrounded by poisonous snakes? Neither - but I guess Snakes.
15.what is your dream car? color and all... Black old school Jeep Grand Wagoneer with the optional wood sign panelling

Body of Lies - what do you think?

I went to the theatre last night and watched Body of Lies last night - it was a long movie and a little confusing at first - but it was quite good. I don't know much about what is really going on in the middle east and even after watching this movie, I still don't but it is QUITE interesting.
Also, Leonardo DiCaprio is rather AMAZING in this movie... If you have 2 hours (or so) and you want a movie that really intrigues you, give it a go - and then we can discuss.

Sunday I most likely will see ROLE MODELS - I will keep you posted.

Also, a colleague just told me that she saw Pride and Glory, which is also playing at the theatre so I may do another double feature.

When the going gets tough - CRAP OUT

I still don't feel well today - too bad that my PCP visit isn't scheduled til 11/24 - which happens to be the same day I get my flu shot. My stomach hurts and now my chest is tight and i have a cough - and to top it all off, when you get one of those nubbins on your tongue - I have one of those on the side of my tongue that keeps hitting my tooth.

Enough complaining- I just entered myself in a contest on the radio - I don't really care for the prize but I knew the answer to the question, so it was worth a shot - it is an all expense paid trip to L.A. to meet Motley Crue - but the question was who is Nikki Six's new girlfriend - OF COURSE I KNOW THAT - I dressed up as her for Halloween last year. So, I gave it a shot.

NKOTB is Saturday at Mohegan Sun - I want to go SO BAD. I talked to my brother about tickets and my friend Jocelyn is going - but I don't think I have anyone to go with me. BUMMER, huh?

Oh where has LIMA BEAN

I was out sick the last few days from work, feeling crapulous as ever... None the less, I must say that I HATE NAIR. I used SENSITIVE SKIN FACIAL NAIR before a wedding on Saturday and it burned my lip so bad that by Monday morning I was covered in scabs. If you look at my friend Jocelyn's website, she has a picture of me from that day and you can see where my lip is swollen.

Also, on the way back from CT for the wedding, something happened to one of my tires so I had to get NEW TIRES and put them on the car. Luckily, my new adopted family - officially my name is Mary-Elizabeth K.F. Mills *the F is for my adoptive family* gave me a set of winter tires used once and they are officially on the PT as we speak. They did tell me I needed a new battery, but that will be acquired once I pay for my LIBRARY BOOK TICKET. I will say that VIP had the lowest price for putting on tires, just in case you were worried.

Well, I am back to work today - with something that looks like herpes on my lip from NAIR and brand new tires - IT WAS BUSINESS PROFESSIONAL TODAY AND NO ONE TOLD ME. OOPS. What a great day.

Today is a great day to be an AMERICAN!

Rocky Horror Picture Show is my HAPPY PLACE

I don't know how it happened or why because it really shouldn't be any one's HAPPY PLACE, but it is mine. Last year I vowed that this year I would dress as Columbia from the movie, but ALAS, I am not.

I will, however, watch this movie tonight - maybe have a glass of wine and indulge in my HAPPY PLACE. That sounds dirty - not my intention!!!!

Happy Haunting

On the up and up

I AM A SUPER HERO - I know that now... Yesterday was a low day. I am feeling much better.

My left eye is feeling yucky still - is it normal to lose a lot of eyelashes in one eye in a short period of time?

How to lose friends and alienate people

I swear to god that I think something is wrong with me as a human being. I don't talk to my mom because we fought too much and I 'broke up' with her. I don't really talk to my dad now because me not speaking with my mom puts him in the middle.

Since I moved out of my sister's place, I haven't seen her nor really talked to her, other than when she got a hair cut and needed me to talk her down.

I don't talk to my brother who lives in concord because honestly he is just a waste. I text occasionally with my oldest brother, but that is it.

My family has cancelled Thanksgiving and Christmas this year as well. Now I am beginning to think it is me. Honestly, I don't think I am that bad of a human being. I really consider the thoughts and feelings of other people upon making decisions and living my life.

I just wonder if when I think I am being the super hero, I am really the villain

Retinal detachment is not the issue

I just did a search online to determine what is kicking my left eye's ass (if it had an ass). At first I thought it was retinal detachment, it isn't:

Symptoms of Retinal Detachment
In most cases, retinal detachment develops slowly. The first symptom is often the sudden appearance of a large number of spots floating loosely in the eye. The person may not seek help, because the number of spots tends to decrease during the days and weeks before detachment. The person may also notice a curious sensation of flashing lights as the eye is moved.
Because the retina does not contain sensory nerves that relay sensations of pain, the condition is painless.

Because my issue is PAINFUL - it isn't this - but I was seeing Flashing lights and spots. So, then I googled EYE PAIN -
I have had a little Eyelash loss - so it says it could be Madrosis - which causes include infections, metabolic disorders, inflammation of the eyelid (AKA blephartis), certain drugs, lupus erthematosus and trauma. Or how about COMPUTER VISION SYNDROME - the symptoms are eye strain, dry eyes, blurred vision, red or pink eyes, burning, light sensitivity, headaches and pain in shoulders, neck and back. THAT COULD BE IT.

This website I found was A-Z for pain issues - I need to walk away.

That's it - I have had it

If one more person asks me what's wrong, or why I look so frazzled I may just go postal. I am tired, I have a headache, I haven't eaten ANYTHING yet today because I have been working on the damn claim summaries that I started on Wednesday and had to re-write them for a third time today - and I am quite overwhelmed.

Plus we had a half hour meeting that turned into an hour meeting changing all of our "Best Practices" to Requirements and I am just learning the old practices and now they are changing them - and then right before the meeting ended, we were advised that not all of these changes effect INVOLUNTARY MARKET, which is what I do... So, I don't really know my ass from my elbow right now.

People tick me off

There is a nurse at work who is assigned to our team and whenever you refer stuff to her she comes up w/ every excuse to not do the referral. She was out on Short Term Disability for three weeks and today is her first day back and she is questioning every damn thing. I want to scream.

My new FAVORITE SONG

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
NaNa Na Na Na Na

I guess i just lost my husband
I don't know where he went
So i'm gonna drink my money
I'm not gonna pay his rent (Nope)
I got a brand new attitude
And i'm gonna wear it tonight
I wanna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na I wanna start a fight
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na I wanna start a fight

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rockstar
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

Uh, check my flow, uh
The waiter just took my table
And gave to Jessica Simp- Shit!
I guess i'll go sit with drum boy
At least he'll know how to hit
What if this song's on the radio
Then somebody's gonna die
I'm gonna get in trouble
My ex will start a fight
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na He's gonna start a fight
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na We're all gonna get in a fight!

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

You weren't there
You never were
You want it all
But that's not fair
I gave you love
I gave my all
You weren't there
You let me fall

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done (we're done)
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright(I'm alright),I'm just fine (I'm just fine)
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight
No No, No No
I Don't want you tonight
You weren't there
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight
Ba da da da da da

Scatterbrained

Seriously, I woke up this morning with a great idea for a blog and it is totally gone...

I think it was about how I had this crazy, intense dream that I think I dreamt the whole night and my alarm went off - and I was like WOW - but immediately forgot it - but then woke up tired.

So, I wonder if you have a very active dream (I know I didn't move at all because I woke up in the same position I went to sleep in and my hair still looked FABULOUS!) if it makes you even more tired when you wake up? And how come after a full night of rest (okay, maybe not full) that one wakes up STILL tired?

Extra coolness to share

Effective today - I have COVERED PARKING! YAY!

I am officially OFFICIAL

I received my STATE OF NEW HAMPSHIRE INSURANCE DEPARTMENT Worker's Compensation Adjuster's license yesterday in the mail.

I feel really cool. I only had to take the TEST ONCE, not like the test to be a teacher that I had to take the math part 5 times... Sadly, I let that lapse too so if I EVER want to teach again in the state of NH, I would have to take the dang PPST's again.

Nonetheless, I am official now baby. First I got business cards, then I won a shiny case to put them in and NOW, I have a license.

Frankly, I am prodigious!

Lately I have been really crafty and have come up w/ some inventions - and thought I would share.

Triple GAY - this is a road side service particularly for Gay people. Also, certain hotels, parks, etc would be TRIPLE GAY approved.

Purrrrr-active- since it is a well known fact that there is such a thing called Kitty Acne, there should be a kitty blend of Proactive for just that.

Aren't I crafty?

The Misadventures of Millsie J. Mills

That is what I want to name my book - because lord knows I have some crazy stories.

First and foremost - It would be about Millsie J. Mills because in college, everyone just called me by my last name, Mills - which I love. One of my friends, Shua, actually thought that Mills was my first name, and I said, "You are right, my name is Millsie J. Mills" and he asked what the J. stood for and I said ANDREW! hehehehe. (People who know me all too well will get the J./Andrew reference)

So, yesterday, wasn't a great day. A doctor really patronized me on the phone, my shoulder hurt and I just wanted to be home. I had decided that on my way home I would FINALLY stop at the library and get a library card. Cory Lee had advised me of a series of books she had read that she thought I would like, so I wanted to go. Plus, a few weeks before that Shaine had driven me by the Libs so I could see where it was. YAY. I had my application and my electric bill because I hadn't updated my license yet (I had w/ the DMV but not put a new sticker on the back). So, I take a left at Exit 14, head by the holiday inn and think I have enough time to make the yellow light. It turned red but I thought I had made it appropriately. Um.... NOPE!

FLASHING BLUES! I have only gotten ONE ticket in my life and it was in 2002, well, let's make that TWO NOW. I couldn't find my registration, I couldn't do a damn thing right and he gave me a $72 ticket. Oh ya. A warning would have sufficed. So, I still can't find my registration btw.

So, I accept my ticket, let him get back in his car. START BAWLING because I don't have spare cash for a ticket and then I realize I don't have any idea where the Libs is. I pulled over and started blubbering like an idiot and realized the damn library was right in front of me.

I go in, get my card and book and leave and as I was heading home, stopping at EVERY yellow light I see another Concord Cop pulling over another lady. They are on the prowl, so drive safe.

Ebert and Mills - or so it should be

I went and saw two movies yesterday. One is a double thumbs up and one is a double thumbs down.

I saw HOUSE BUNNY. OMFG! Hilarious. It was just laugh out loud, throw your head back and laugh funny. I recommend it because it isn't really thought provoking but the underlying theme is good and it is just a cute all around movie.

Tropic of Thunder was so stupid. I texted thru the whole movie. The best part of the movie, and I hate to say this, is the CAMEO of Tom Cruise. I hate Tom but he was so freakin funny in this movie. Jack Black didn't do a darn thing funny. However, Robert Downey Jr was really funny too, but not in a laugh out loud kind of way, in like a hmmmmmmmm kind of way. I know they say it is the come back of the R rated comedy but I think this movie was a flop. This was in no way close to 40 year old virgin funny or even Knocked up funny.

I suck at life - part deux

So today I was supposed to take the day off as my friend is having surgery but since there is a huge WC convention and half the office is out, I was unable to take the day. I feel like a schmuck. I really do.

Score!

I just received an email from a Volleyball team that needs a girl to play on their team. I am so excited. I haven't played since before I moved to the seacoast and this team is right here in Concord - I will only have to drive within the town I live. YAY!

Adventures in Babysitting

At 6am this morning, when I got up, I had a great idea for a blog today - a funny anecdote from the recesses of my mind - and now it is gone. It was funny. But no clue what it was

I woke up with the words to a song I have only heard ONCE in my life in my head and KENNY CHESNEY was in my dream - which took place on School Lane, which is an off shoot of the street I grew up on.

I REMEMBER NOW...

I have never been a babysitter really. I have babysat a few times in my life and the horrible times out weigh the good. Like the first time I babysat was for a newborn/infant. My mom was adamant that I take the babysitter course before I do any babysitting, which I think was smart because knowing me as well as I do, I should take a class before I do just about anything...

Well, with this baby, I had never EVER changed a real diaper. The babysitting course taught me how but not with real feces. So, I opened up this diaper and it was GREEEEEEEEEN. I definitely know it ain't easy being green because I vomited right on the child. OH YA. And there was the last time I EVER baby sat for an infant.

The 2ND horrible experience is when I was babysitting for neighbors up the road and the kids were in elementary/middle school so no diaper issues, but the house was set on a weird slope of the road where sometimes cars would end up in their front yard. Jokingly, before the parents went out they said, "DON'T BOTHER US, EVEN IF A CAR ENDS UP IN THE FRONT YARD!" (you know where this is going, huh?)

Lo and behold a car landed up in the front yard. Interestingly enough, my first thought was to call the police because the driver of the vehicle asked me not to call authorities because her license was SUSPENDED... DING DING DING... I called the police and then called the GRANDMOTHER of the kids I was watching to let her know the dilly...

So, this is why I do not EVER BABYSIT.

I also want to say along w/ my adventures in babysitting it is also an example of a SMALL WORLD. I used to work with the STEP MOTHER of the infant I vomited on (and am still good friends with her) and I just found out this morning that Shaine's mom used to go to the house where I was babysitting and hang out doing crafts. Shaine used to go with her at times, which means Shaine used to hang out 3 houses down from me.

Crazy, huh?

Big Oopsie

I guess by me saying that I spent time with my best friend over the weekend hurt some feelings....

I guess there are different stages of best friends. People you have known for almost 2 decades and may not see every day but pick up like there was never any time apart, and email or chat daily over the internet, that would constitute a best friend.

Also, there are best friends that you see everyday and it doesn't feel right if you haven't talked to them or hung out with them.

One isn't better or worse than the other. I should just feel lucky that I have both types of best friends.

Oktoberfest=October fun

This passed weekend Shaine and I went up to Bartlett, NH to go to Oktoberfest at Attitash. I have been approximately 5 times (can't really remember all the details) and Judy Powers (my best friend) was going to be there and I wanted Shaine to meet her.

We had a blast - although Shaine and I neglected to eat before all the beer, we still had a great time. Shaine attempted the Stein holding competition! YAY Shaine.

After Oktoberfest, we went to Dick's house (Judy's brother) In Fryeburg, ME and the party continued. I kind of pooped out but Shaine was a champ and stayed up until the end of the red sox game - he stayed up longer than anyone.

We got up and drove home and had the SLOWEST car in front of us - and just when I had an opportunity to pass, I almost killed us - it was like the slow car sped up or something. Then, out of the blue comes a HUGE MOOSE! So, in retrospect, if I had been able to pass the slow car, I probably would have hit the moose.

Chuck Norris for President

Chuck Norris was on 100.3 Wheb this morning - they had up to 45 minutes with him, and they talked for basically my whole commute this morning.

Chuck has a new book out entitled, "Black Belt Patriotism: How to Reawaken America" and he was discussing this book and his views on the war in Iraq and just his views on faith and the 'Hollywood Life'. If he ran for president he would have my vote. I definitely want to read his book now too.

He didn't know about the Chuckisms that we all know and love (especially on FLAIR at face book) but he said he thought when he first heard about them that it would last a few weeks - and then when he went to IRAQ and there were tons of the CHUCKISMS written in the commode. He knew he had made it then... hehehehehehe.

Chuck would get my vote, let me tell you.

a day that will live on in infamy.

I woke up this morning and got ready for work - and just before I left, I went to feed my fish, Amaretto, and he was dead- belly up minus the sparkle in his eyes.

It is an end of an era today. Let me set the scene, picture this 6/9/07 (not only was it Michael J. Fox's birthday) it was Cory Lee's wedding day. She had a gloriously coffee themed reception and every table had a name. My table was entitled Amaretto. The centerpieces we vases with Beta Fish in them. I luckily won the centerpiece and therefore named my fish after our table. Sadly, Amaretto is now in the big fish bowl in the sky.

Has reality tv lost its spark for me?

I didn't watch the last season of Big Brother because I didn't even know it had started - I felt slighted... And now, my DVR didn't record the first episode of Survivor Gabon and I don't really feel any connection to it... What is happening to me?

However, I did watch all of Dancing with the Stars last night, which I normally DO NOT WATCH. Survivor is MY SHOW. I won the survivor pool last year at work, like it is my favorite show and I don't feel a connection to it this year.

it's definitely time to make the doughnuts

Yesterday on the way to the Corn Maze, we stopped at Dunkin Donuts in Concord to get coffee and donuts for the girls - THEY DIDN'T HAVE ANY DONUTS... Seriously? Seriously. So, we left mid order and went to another one - and THEY didn't have any donuts...

I don't understand if DONUT is in your name, isn't it a requirement to have EFFEN DONUTS?

When we pulled up to get our coffee I asked what time they make the donuts and she said they are made in the morning and that is ALL they have... Seriously?

Something wicked this way comes...

I had a horrible nightmare last night. It was like a bad Rob Zombie movie. I can't remember how it started but it ended up that there was this Mad Max kind of Fraternity and they would gang rape women and then remove their skin - some how I became the next victim.

The most vibrant part of this dream was that I was trying to escape this motley crue of scary fraternity brothers and we were on this rural road - but not rural enough that there weren't houses or anything - and this gaggle of scary dudes came up on me on foot as well as in some vehicles and every time I screamed for help to the people standing in their driveways, they would rev the engines of their vehicles to drown out my pleas for help... I was wearing a skirt and one of the guys removed my underwear. Another guy had many Prince Albert piercings and was completely exposed and another of the guys started removing his pants and exclaimed, "We have killed seven people today and had NO SEX!" and when he started to remove his pants he had growths and fungus and yuckiness all in his genital area.

I started to run away into the field and someone yelled to me, a woman who knew me well enough to yell, "Mary-Elizabeth Katherine Mills - what is going on?" and then a guy drove up to her on a motorcycle with flowers (like a date) and with that she totally became oblivious to the bedlam that was going on in front of her...

LUCKILY - my cell phone was ringing with a text and it woke me from my slumber. IT WAS FREAKY... I do remember at one point, I was on what was supposed to be KSC campus and there were some other girls that partied with this fraternity and one girl ended up standing with her feet in the toilet, swirling around and then fell and hit her head on the bath tub and died. WEIRD - Please tell me what all of this means?

ANY WHO...

At work, my friend Holly and I are Co-Chairs of the Social Committee - so we orchestrated a JEANS DAY for today because it is Lee National Denim Day - people need to pay $5 to wear jeans and the proceeds go to Breast Cancer research - we have raised approximately $900.00 - which I think is awesome.

What frosts my fanny is that there are people here today WEARING JEANS who did not pay! That is just lower than low and I hope they all rot in hell.

Eskimo words for snow

I was going to be all witty and try to make a great analogy for what I am going to blog about and relate it to the myriad of words Eskimos have for snow - so I went to Google and it pointed me in the direction of Wikipedia. I got all excited and started to read it and it says:
"It is a popular urban legend that the Inuit or Eskimo have an unusually large number of words for snow. In reality, the number of words depends on the definitions of Eskimo (there are a number of language) and snow, and on the method of counting numbers of words in languages that have quite different grammatical structures from English"

So, that totally ruins my plans for an awesome blog and almost made me forget what I was going to blog about... I digress.

Yesterday was a crazy day. I think most work days are just crazy. I am not sure what my damage is, but I have been feeling VERY overwhelmed this week, like I am carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders, unnecessarily for that matter. I am not sure what has brought this about, but it just happens. First I thought it was the weather yesterday and I was just down in the dumps, but them later on in the day I started feeling better - and jovial and back to my ole self... Then I decided I must just be hypoglycemic... I don't know where that came from, but it was definitely the way I could explain how I feel yucky all morning- almost EVERY MORNING- and it is a fine line between feeling hungry or nauseous. This is every morning... So, again I googled it:

Hypoglycemia is the medical term for a pathologic state produced by a lower than normal level of glucose (sugar) in the blood.

While there is some degree of variability among people, most will usually develop symptoms suggestive of hypoglycemia when blood glucose levels are lowered to the mid 50's. The first set of symptoms are called neuro-genic (or sympathetic) because they relate to the nervous system's response to hypoglycemia. Patients may experience any of the following;
nervousness,
sweating,
intense hunger,
trembling,
weakness,
palpitations, and
often have trouble speaking.

Okay - That rules me out - now back to my story...

So, after a crazy day, it ended out wonderful. I hung out with friends and had great company to lift my spirits. Yesterday ended wonderfully and today started beautifully as well and I hope my mood continues to stay even keel and prosper.

I guess now that I have learned that it is just an Urban legend about the Eskimo words for snow, I can't really relate it to my blog - I wanted to say that in Spanish there are many ways to say you love stuff - There is a word for loving things and there is a word for loving people - one of the words for loving a person is actually saying, "I want you" interestingly enough. What I am trying to say is how do you know the "strength" of the word to say you love someone? When do you know it is the right time to move from the meager liking of something to expressing that stronger word of love? Maybe I am too analytical and worrisome, but I don't know when it is appropriate.

So now that the world is all perfectly in alignment once again, maybe I should just pick an Eskimo word *(no matter what the dialect)* and use that to equate how I feel. People may not know what I mean, but I will, and I will not run the risk of saying it too early.

GRAMMAR POLICE

OMG- If I hear, "YOU WELCOME" one more time I may vomit. It is a contraction for "You are welcome" becoming "You're welcome". This can't be just a NH thing, right? In both Liberty offices I have worked in, in Dover and now here, I hear it DAILY.


AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!

I'm not ready for winter

My favorite seasons are seasons of transition. I love FALL and SPRING! I like when it isn't too warm and isn't too hot. I am not looking forward to the winter for many reasons

1. I am so not ready for commuting in snow storms and inclement weather
2. I am just not ready for snow. I hate shoveling, wearing a jacket, not wearing sandals
3. I love blustery fall days where a sweatshirt and a fleece vest is enough - but having to bundle up in a winter jacket, scarf, boots, hat, YUCK!
4. The days are getting shorter and darker and I feel the depression setting in
5. I dislike the holidays of this season, my family seems to cancel Thanksgiving and Christmas to spite themselves so I don't enjoy them, they are just another day for me.
6. When the days shorten, I don't see any sunlight and I am the type of person who needs sunshine to brighten my day.
7. I don't play any sports in the winter, I used to play volleyball and now I don't know of anything like that available. Although I bitched a lot about driving to Dover to play, I still did it.
8. I need new clothes and shoes and I just can't afford winter clothes right now.
9. I HATE WINTER

Does anyone have any pros for this approaching season?

And so it goes

Heroes was AMAZING last night - but I still experienced DVR problems. I don't understand. I was watching the end of the Labor Day Marathon of Anthony Bourdain No reservations before going over to Shaine's to watch Heroes and my DVR was to record both Gossip Girl and The Big Bang Theory - and Big Bang Theory didn't record... I tried to hit record and start it up, to no avail.

Now, I know I am a TV-aholic, but it frustrates me when my shows aren't recorded as they are supposed to be. DVR is supposed to help me not feel chained down to the TV and it is making me angry. First you eff with Survivor and now The Big Bang Theory. Thank goodness I can get them online.

Did you hear about Survivor last week? If my DVR had recorded it, I could have seen it but one of the guys was "exposed" in a challenge and CBS didn't pick it up until YESTERDAY. PORN ON CBS! hehehehehe. Nonetheless, I missed it.

We've got a winner

It was a rainy Saturday at the Salisbury Green Resident Appreciation day - but not in Katie's world. I won a $25 gift certificate to Wal-mart, a $15 gift certificate to Dunkins and a $15 gift certificate to Shaw's. I like to be a winner. I gave the Wal-mart card to Shaine to get groceries and then the lady sitting next to me helped me with part of my answer on one of the games so I gave her the Shaw's card... I thought that was thoughtful too, I didn't need to win all of the games, right?

After the BBQ with yummy ribs from Beefside, Shaine and I dropped his girls off at their Grandparents and we went BOWLING... Little balls, which I am not a fan of - I LIKE THE BIGGINS - but that's okay - we had a great time. Shaine kicked my sorry arse all three strings - but it was so much fun. Glow Bowling? I have never done that before. At first I thought that was the kind where they put the bumpers up, in retrospect I would have needed that as I guttered a lot - but oh well. I kept the score sheet for posterity's sake and asked Shaine last night after he beat me TWICE at cribbage if we could play something that maybe I have a chance of winning. He asked what would that be and I said I HAVE NO IDEA. Seriously - even if we went to the batting cages, something he has never done, I am sure he would rock it.

After losing to Shaine in Cribbage we had dinner - Pizza Hut's Tuscani pasta - YOU HAVE GOT TO TRY THE BACON MAC n CHEESE (and yes I am yelling) it was Fan-freakin-tastic! We also watched Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay! Very funny. I think I liked it better then the first one!

So, a great weekend was had by me. Even though it was rainy and hurricaning out, it was SO enjoyable.

DVR WTF?

Okay - I have been a loyal fan of the DVR since its inception - and last night I wanted to throw it off the balcony.

My friends had a similar issue on Monday with Heroes. I went to watch the recorded 2 hour premiere of Survivor - my favorite TV show and it wasn't on there - ABSOLUTELY NO REASON WHY IT SHOULDN'T have been. I think a ghost from Ghost Hunters has infiltrated my DVR and doesn't want me to watch Survivor any more.

Hopefully I can find this episode on demand or online - but I have NEVER missed an episode of Survivor... EVER!

Heroes

WOW! I have noticed that a lot of the fall premiere shows HAVE TO BE 2 hour long dealies. Well, last night was heroes - I AM SO CONFUSED. I think Heroes season finale was before the writer's strike last year - so it has been a long time since it was on and I have forgotten a lot of the facts and there they go and just change it all up.

Did anyone else watch it last night? Could you shed any light on this because I am so confused. With out giving anything away:

• Suresh is an IDIOT
• Sylar is hot
• KILL THE CHEERLEADER ALREADY
• Peter Petrelli is just a fame hog so he has to be in EVERY SCENE
• How many OTHER things can happen to Nathan Petrelli?

Okay - I think that is all I have right now - but seriously... SERIOUSLY.

Farm Aid 2008

I guess I am an idiot - I thought Farm Aid was a tour - and then to realize that we got to witness the one and only FARM AID performance, the 23rd of its kind - I was humbled.

We got to see Jerry Lee Lewis - looked old, didn't even get up from his piano, and we were waiting for it to go ablaze. It was about 4 or 5 songs per performer. However, Willie Nelson did more, I think. He did BEER FOR OUR HORSES and wrapped in a green sleeping bag, I jumped up and down like it was Christmas morning and I just got the gift of my dreams.

What a fun day had by all - we got there, grilled, sat down and chilled and then went into the show. No issues whatsoever. If every day could be so fun!

Grace is Gone - best dave song ever - in honor of Farm Aid tomorrow

Neon shines through smokey eyes tonight
It's 2 A.M., I'm drunk again
And it's heavy on my mind

I could never love again
So much as I love you
Where you end, where I begin
Is like a river running through

Take my heart, take my eyes
I need them no more
If never again they fall
Upon the one I so adore...

Excuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I'll be gone

One drink to remember
Then another to forget
I think of every day to find
A love like you again

One drink to remember
And another to forget

Excuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I'll be gone
One more drink and I'll move on

You think of things impossible
Then the sun refuse to shine
I woke with you beside me
Your cold hand lay in mine

Excuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I'll go...

Excuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong?
'Cause I don't need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I'll move on
One more drink and I'll move on
One more drink, my grace is gone

And the Award goes to...

That's right - I have received two awards at work - within two weeks- for my excellent customer service!

Yesterday I got a telephone call from a Customer singing my praises so I immediately asked her if I could transfer her to my manager. My manager sent out an email to myself and our HEAD BOSS saying:

Katie,

I received the following compliment from **** (I'm not putting her name in my blog)

Thank you for providing Excellent Customer Service!

I have been working with Katie Mills (current adjuster on case.)
I just want to let you know.
Because of Katie Mills we are actually looking at an end to this.
She has been a great help to us, and getting our employee released to return to work.
Katie is doing a fantastic job.

So, today in our meeting I received my award and recognition for being a great worker. A few weeks back I received another award because one our our defense attorney's advised another co-worker and then myself how much the NH Department of Labor enjoys working with me. (I can't find the email, it must be archived) Oh ya. I rock...

As a former boss used to say - TOOT YOUR OWN HORN WHEN YOU DO SOMETHING WELL... so TOOT TOOT!

always the funny gal

I was thinking the other day that a lot of overweight women lean towards being the funny girl. I wonder if it is "our way" of fitting in? A lot of times it is very self-deprecating - but I feel it is much better to make fun of oneself before someone else does...

Why is it that we think we have to be silly? Or is that our niche? Like I LOVE making people laugh, I actually think it is my defense mechanism. When the going gets tough, Katie will break the ice, or Katie will say something light hearted to bring a smile out. I know I am a goof ball and that I am just full blown odd, but what made me want to be a silly goose?

It can't be the fat cells, can it?

Negotiations

Yesterday I was in negotiation training all day. It is the first time that I was in a class that I enjoyed the instructor and the instruction techniques. EXCEPT there was a girl in our training that had to comment after every single statement that the Instructor made.

It reminded me of the continuing ed students at KSC - that had to share their life story to the whole class every five seconds. Specifically, there was a woman in my class of Social Psychology (Jocelyn can attest to this woman) who was just an over sharer...

I hope when I start my master's program at SNHU I don't turn into that lady.

Givin it the good ole college try

So, I am in so much pain today - and I am sucking it up and trying to work. Don't know if that is a smart idea. So, please send me happy thoughts today.

Sorry I have been MIA

What a crazy week! I only worked about one and a half days this past week. I have tendinitis in my right shoulder and that has been very uncomfortable...

Don't worry I will be back in full swing (so to speak, minus the tendinitis) on Monday.

The VMA's Sucked eggs thru a straw

I haven't watched the VMA's in years - but back in the day they were awesome. This year was the 25th anniversary of the VMA's and there could have been so many different things they could have done to commemorate this anniversary - but they didn't.

They did make it a point to say that Brit hadn't won a VMA ever - and won she did last night, she won THREE TIMES - and I think it was rigged as like a publicity stunt or something. Per my Yoda, Pepsi sponsored the VMA's and Brit used to have a contract w/ them - coincidence, I think not.

Also, I was informed that the radio was saying that Brit wouldn't have shown up if she didn't know she was winning. I agree. Up until the last minute, we thought she was performing, hence watching the DAMN SHOW.

I was partially psyched to see Christina Aguliera and I think she was lip syncing and she did a Marilyn Manson-esque version of Genie in a Bottle. She looked good, but I wasn't impressed w/ her performance of a bubble gum song, SUPER BITCH -with cape and everything, like it was a super hero.

I was also disappointed that there was no mention of the passing of Leroi - I think The Dave Matthews Band has won a VMA here or there, so I found that quite rude.

I would ask for my money back on that show. PINK WAS THE BEST PART OF THE WHOLE NIGHT AND I CAN'T WAIT TIL HER ALBUM COMES OUT. She did have a slight wardrobe malfunction, but it was okay. SHE MADE THE WHOLE DAMN SHOW WORTH WHILE.

I am interested in hearing what anyone else has to say who watched it so PLEASE COMMENT!

57

TODAY IS MY 57th blog... To me that is like reaching 100! That is my FAVORITE NUMBER OF ALL TIME. SO, I would like to tell you 57 things about me - because I rock:

1.) My favorite movie of all time is EDDIE AND THE CRUISERS.
2.) Best line from a movie ever is from EVENING STAR - the sequel to Terms of Endearment - –You’ve done so many wonderful, monumental things. You walked on the moon.–Sure. And you’ve walked on the Earth. It’s a nicer place.
3.) I wanted to change my name to Cinnamon when I was little but didn't know how to spell it.
4.) I wanted to be a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader up until I was 10 years old
5.) I slept w/ a night light until I was 14
6.) I sincerely thought I was Lil Orphan Annie for a while because I knew all the words to the songs in the movie.
7.) I had tons of imaginary friends - all of which were like Good Ghost and Bad Ghost, Good Witch and Bad Witch, so if I made a new friend there would be Good Kim and Bad Kim
8.) Rocky Horror picture show is my Happy Place
9.) My entire Sophomore year of college I watched WHEN HARRY MET SALLY every night to fall asleep.
10.) I really wish I was ambidextrous
11.) I blame my parents daily for not teaching me to play golf because I could have been TIGER MILLS
12.) When I was little, I played a donkey in a dance recital and FARTED thru the whole thing and had no idea what farting was.
13.) My favorite song in the whole wide world is GEORGIA ON MY MIND - but by Michael Bolton not Ray Charles
14.) Sadly, I actually own the Pacifier
15.) My first friend ever is named Katie as well
16.) I went to kindergarten on a farm
17.) I won first place in Greek week for Jello eating and Belly flop
18.) My favorite book is I KNOW THIS MUCH IS TRUE by WALLY LAMB
19.) I have over 800 songs in my Ipod
20.) I have dimples in my elbows and ears. My mom says the dimples in my elbow are DEEPER than everyone elses - but I also have one dimple on my face too, right side, near the corner of my mouth next to my CINDY CRAWFORD mole
21.) Cows rock
22.) I have never seen any of the Star Wars Movies
23.) I am addicted to Facebook and blogging
24.) It pisses me off when people just assume my first name is MARY
25.) I am obsessed with sending cards for anniversaries and birthdays
26.) I am obsessed with sending Thank you cards
27.) Sophie Kinsella is my favorite author
28.) I have seen EVERY SINGLE EPISODE OF SURVIVOR - every season
29.) I was growing so fast when I was little that I was supposed to be over 6 feet tall
30.) Currently I am roughly the size of a hobbit
31.) I have been to Italy twice
32.) I need to renew my passport
33.) The first place I went in Paris was to see Jim Morrison's grave site
34.) I am the youngest in my family, but have the longest name
35.) My sister and I are 10 years and 2 weeks apart in age. So, when she turned 42, two weeks later I turned 32.
36.) My oldest brother graduated from college when I was in 2nd grade and Gavin McLeod spoke at his graduation - that's Captain Stubing from the Love Boat
37.) My father had a heart attack on my 13th birthday
38.) I didn't know that the WWE was fake until way after I should have
39.) I still have to do math on my fingers
40.) I thought calculus was the math of how to use calculators.
41.) I thought napkin was spelled knapkin until I was a senior in High School
42.) I JUST RECENTLY learned that the song by Stevie Nicks isn't ONE WINGED DOVE, that it is WHITE WINGED DOVE
43.) I am obsessed w/ texting
44.) I feel naked if I don't have perfume on
45.) I throw a Frisbee and do sign language w/ my left hand.
46.) I want to retire in Costa Rica and own my own bar.
47.) The two things that would make me the happiest in life would be to have a fridge w/ the water dispenser on the outside and own an old school Jeep Grand Wagoneer w/ the optional wood side paneling.
48.) I really thought I could retire on the profits from my BEANIE BABY COLLECTION
49.) I graduated 14th in my class in high school
50.) I still have the article from when Michael J. Fox got married as I seriously thought he was going to marry me.
51.) I have moved almost every year since 1997
52.) I have seen the Monkees in Concert 3 times and Davey Jones 2 times
53.) I secretly would like to be a race car driver
54.) I think everyone's middle initial should be P for Petunia
55.) I tried out for a production of the Sound of Music as Gretel and lost out to an 8 year old who had done a commercial. I was devastated
56.) I have a hippo tape dispenser
and last but not least
57.) I purposely didn't buy a shot glass when I went to Las Vegas so I will HAVE TO GO BACK.

I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did

I'm no spring chicken

I am definitely feeling older than my years. As Garth says, "I'm much to young to feel this damn old!" After moving (and still bringing boxes up and down stairs) and then three games *tonight will be the third* game in a row, my body hurts in places I didn't know possible.

I should be so proud of myself for playing awesomely the last two games. Last night I hit a double and made some great plays and ran like a mofo, but my knees and legs are taking a toll.

ONE MORE TO GO TONIGHT and another one Monday and then we have Playoffs and tournament...

I should get an award this year for driving from Bedford/Concord to Dover to play!

Finally! I made the write up

After 10 softball games and playing my best softball ever this year, I finally made the write up. I had been in one previously but lately I hadn't been included - LAST NIGHT CHANGED THAT:

Hey guys!!
It was history last night.. The Batta-Bings defeated Primetime, bringing our record back to .500 at 5-5. You never know.. we could end up with a better record than last season's 7-6..
Who was that Batta-Bing infield last night?!?! It was amazing!! Kevin is loving the hot corner at 3rd, and Jess was making great scoops and catches at 1st.. The ever solid tandem of Eric and Jason at SS was brilliant as usual.. But 'star-of-the-day' had to go to Ms. Katie Mills at 2nd base! She had some great stops, catches, tags and throws.. It was beautiful to watch!! And no swearing- very big step Katie! :)
What can I say about our outfield?? I'm beginning to take you all for granted out there- no matter who I put there- or where I put you- you all make great stops, catches and throws.. Our defense is really stepping up!! Love it!!

Oh ya - you see that? Can we say STAR OF THE DAY?????!!!!!! YAY. So, two more games tonight and tomorrow - let's see if I can kick arse once again and NOT SWEAR either.